Saturday, August 7, 2010

selamat tinggal buat selama-lamanya..

sudah janji Allah dengan hambaNya,
after 4/5 days fighting for her life, akhirnya Kak Yam pergi jua.

eventho i can only recited the Yaasin that i memorized by heart silently
(bulan mengambang. huhu),
i'm glad that i had the chance to visit her in the ICU.
i went to visit her twice at Gleneagles yesterday, but i only managed to see her in the evening.
she was in a critical condition by that time.

in my entire life, i have never seen anyone in coma
so i was actually dunno what was i supposed to do when i see her.
so when Kak Ya said that she's going in to recite Yaasin, i followed her to recite a doa for a coma person.

Adam (Kak Yam's eldest son) was already in there by the time we went to the room.
pastu dorang baca Yaasin and i only stand silently.
baca dalam hati saje.
berdebar-debar jugak la bila mesin tu berbunyi
"tet.tet.tet"
and suddenly went "Teeeeeetttttt".
i was like 'oh nooo. jangan la..,'
pastu tetiba sambung balik "tet.tet.tet".
phew. lega balik.

moment paling sedih,
bila lepas dorang bertiga (adam, kak ya, o'os) baca Yaasin dan a few ayat lazim,
Adam slowly bisik di telinga Kak Yam,

"Mama, ni Adam ni.. Adam bacakan syahadah untuk Mama ye..."
and continued with
"Asyhadu al Laa ila ha illallah, wa asyhadu anna Muhammad Rasulullah"
"Aku naik saksi bahawa tiada tuhan selain Allah dan Aku bersaksi bahawa Muhammad pesuruh Allah..."

sangat sebak..
sangat sangat sangat sebak..
and i shed my tears masa tu..
T____T

i went back home around 9ish pm after 4 hours staying there.
pastu dalam pukul 6.30 pagi (Sabtu, 7 Ogos) lebih camtu,
Kak Ya send sms, saying that Kak Yam's gone.. forever.

my family came from Melaka and together we went to the mosque (Maluri) untuk solat jenazah.
untung betul Kak Yam sebab sangat lah ramai yang hadir untuk solat jenazah.

pastu kitorang semua ke Putrajaya untuk pengkebumian...
the last farewell..

dan seperti kata imam semasa talkin dibacakan,
"di sini adalah sempadan di antara dunia dan akhirat..",
"... selamat tinggal untuk selama-selamanya.."

hukhuk.
sedih..

semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat.
semoga beliau diletakkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman..
dan semoga beliau tenang dan aman di sana.

amin.




*sedih sebab tak dapat bayangkan macam mana la bila anak arwah yang bongsu (6 tahun) tu nanti tiba-tiba tanya "Mama mana?"

* arini tak dapat pergi reception kacuk & farra. sorry bro.


*am blogging from home, using my Dad's one week old notebook

(
secara senyap-senyap. so shhhh!).*




2 comments :

Md. Naswardi said...

al-fatihah..

semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat..

{ miss ttjl } said...

aminnnnn..